My Quest To Lose 37 Pounds

Where do I even begin? I'm 44 and I need to lose at least 37 lbs. That would put me at my pre-pregnancy weight. I could stand to lose 47 lbs. which would put me at my pre-wedding weight, but that is a loftier goal that I'm willing to commit to right now. Over the past year I haven't even been able to lose 10 lbs., so 37 lbs. is as far as I'm willing to go. I know I can change that later. If I can get 37 lbs. off this fat ass, surely, I can lose another 10!!

I have my friend Wendie to thank for this blogging idea. She is going to climb 69 flights of stairs in two-and-a-half months and needs to get in shape in order to do it. Her thinking is to go public with her goal to make it more real, make herself accountable. She is going to use blogging about it as a tool to help her achieve her goal. I'm stealing your idea, Wendie...

So, I started yesterday and was a "good girl." Salad, water, soup. No Coke, no chocolate, not a lot of carbs (only the salad dressing & cut up chicken strips on my salad). Today I've been pretty good: WW Smart Ones breakfast sandwich, 1% milk and more of my bean soup (delicious!). Water. Oh, and that chocolate covered cherry I would never have thought to reward myself with except my father-in-law called and said, "Have you finished off those CCCs yet?" Oh, no I haven't! I'll just have one now... So, really, it's my father-in-law's fault for today's chocolate indulgence.

As I mentioned earlier, I created this blog (my first ever!) to assist me in My Quest To Lose 37 Pounds over the next 19 weeks (2 lbs. a week), but I have sooooo many other issues and crap in my life that I'm going to write about, not the least of which are my obsessions: Johnny Depp, vodka & chocolate. Delicious, every one of them! But, I left one other important one out: bacon cheeseburgers. But, adding that seemed a little long and, truthfully, I only thought of it after I'd chosen JP, V&C. I wonder if I can change it?

The point I am trying to make is that this blog or site or page or whatever the hell it is that you call this thing I'm in the process of creating is not just going to be about My Quest To Lose 37 Pounds. Buddy, I'm writing about EVERYTHING (within reason). Nothing tawdry or inappropriate. I am way too old for that! But, I will go on about my daily stuff just to vent. My husband said, "Why are you starting a blog? You don't have time for that." I said, "No, but if I vent on my blog you won't have to listen to it." There was no comment. That either means he didn't hear me or he likes the idea. We'll go with the latter.

I started writing in a diary or journal when I was 15, but stopped after I had my 2nd child because I just couldn't find the time to do it. That's been 11+ years ago. Journaling is a great outlet and I need to get back to using it and, trust me, I will blather on about any old thing. You may laugh, you will undoubtedly be bored, I may even offend you (if, in fact, there is anyone besides me who reads this). I cuss like a longshoreman (another element of my life I need to put in check) and, yes, I not only begin and end sentences with prepositions, but I begin so many of them with "I." My apologies in advance.

Oh, I also use too many exclamation marks and ...s. And I like to color, bold, italicize and CAPITALIZE for dramatic effect, so just deal with it. That's my style... :)

So, back to the issue at hand: I'm 44 and I'm 37-47 pounds overweight. I love watching The Biggest Loser because people have gone on that show and done amazing things, but I've always wanted to watch somebody like me on there... not a person who needs to lose hundreds of pounds or even more than 50. That's not my reality, so I watch that show and start feeling pretty good about myself with my less than 50 pounds to lose. And while I'm patting myself on the back for not having hundreds of pounds to lose, I'm sitting on the couch drinking my Screwdriver with grenadine and eating potato chips or half a box of Tagalongs or Jack-in-the-Box. If I keep that up, I might just be able to get on The Biggest Loser...

But I digress!! Sorry. And now I've forgotten the point of this first post. Gimme a minute...

I've re-read everything I've written and still have no idea where I was going. So, I shall end this first post, publish it and get back to cleaning my room which is a perfect segue as my next post will be about CLUTTER, one of the many issues (for lack of a better word) stemming from adult ADD, with which I was diagnosed several years ago.